Thank You

Almost to the end of Syawal and open houses still go on.

Thanks a million to all, Amy and En. Zahid for the brunch, Kak Idah for the great lunch and completed our day with dinner and family gathering in a newly opened restaurant owned by Felda named Savaro located in Publika, Hartamas. Great hospitality and I enjoy the white furnishings and decorating style with splash of green and wood colours.

The kids were overjoyed  that Savaro is just few metres away from Hartamas Regency condo. It was a great timeout for them, spending few hours in the pool regardless of the pouring rain and straight to the restaurant for dinner.
Thank you so much to Kak Yati/Mak De.

Do share several snapshots during the dinner:)

Thank You to Fatin(kanan) di ats layanan

Nasi dihidang di dalam buluh comel

Gambar sebagai kenangan 

Everything Happens for a Reason

An old time friend in uitm Atai (thanks alot:)) shared this story in our group. I must admit it is very true. Everything happens for a reason and Allah knows best. After one year arwah left me and the kids, i learnt a lot and despite of all the challenges, tests and obstacles we faced, there will always be blessings at the end of the episode.

As for me, i personally feels the difference, the strength, the courage and most of all to be more thankful and "syukur" to Him.

I wish my children grow up to be better each day, be thankful and i know this is a great challenge to me.

Feel free to share this story ya:)

A King had a male servant who, in all circumstances always said to him; My king, do not be discouraged because everything Allah does is perfect, no mistakes. One day, they went hunting and a wild animal attacked the king,the servant managed to kill the animal but couldn't prevent his majesty from losing a finger. Furious and without showing gratitude, the King said; if Allah was good,
I would not have been attacked and lost one finger. The servant replied;
Despite all these things, I can only tell you that Allah is good and everything He does is perfect,He is never wrong. Outraged by the response, the king ordered the arrest of his servant. Later, he left for another hunt and was captured by savages who use human beings for sacrifice. In the altar, the savages found out that the king didn't have one finger in place, he was released because he was considered not "complete" to be offered to the Gods.

On his return to the palace, he authorized the release of his servant and said; My friend, Allah was really good to me. I was almost killed but for lack of a single finger I was let go. But I have a question; If Allah is so good, why did He allow me to put you in jail?. He replied; My king, if I had gone with you, I would have been sacrificed because I have no missing finger. Everything Allah does is perfect, He is never wrong.


Often we complain about life, and the incidents that happen to us, forgetting that nothing is random, and that everything has a purpose. Allah knows why he chose you to face the challenge simply because everything happens for a reason, things do happen for our own good.

Allah is Great!

Hanna and her wish

"Mama hari ni kita pergi kubur papa ke?" Early in the morning today. I just agreed but since a last minute order for 10 big jars was received this morning, I thought Hanna could wait patiently.

Alhamdulillah we made it in the last day of Ramadhan this year to fullfill Hanna's wish and for the second time celebrating Aidil Fitri without arwah. Alfatihah........

It is a different feeling...

Wish you all a happy and peacefull Eid ul Fitr Mubarak, and may Allah bless and reward all of you with His blessings.

11 JULY

Last year on the same date, 11 July 2012 changed our whole life. That phone call.... from his workplace was never expected. Puan Salina from the HR department at around 2.30pm informed me about Arwah being collapsed and the police  had arrived. "Saya nak inform suami Puan dah meninggal dunia".He had gone forever without saying goodbye. His last promise that morning was to Hanna "hari ni nak balik awal sikit and nanti kita jumpa ya", while hugging each other. Afrer few days, in her conversation with Kak Syakira, "papa cakap nak balik awal tapi tak balik pun, terus meninggal".

Before the phone call was received, packets of rice were delivered to our doorstep and I straight away asked Haziq to text arwah and informed him. Nevertheless he did not reply. I thought he might be very busy in the office after being in Australia and Jakarta for the past two weeks. Maybe later...I was wrong. He was dying and later we were informed about his demise.

Di dalam tempoh setahun pelbagai pengalaman baru ditempuhi. Semua dilihat sangat susah untuk ditempuhi.Masa berlalu dan hidup diteruskan dengan sokongan pelbagai pihak walaupun rupanya baru tersedar ada yang mengambil kesempatan di atas pemergiannya. Bantuan yang dihulurkan menjadi ungkitan sebagai pengorbanan kepada kami sekeluarga.

Apapun sokongan ikhlas dari orang lain, sahabat handai, jiran dan saudara mara mengatasi segalanya. Terina kasih tidak terhingga kepada semua yang ikhlas membantu kami kerana Allah. Hanya Dia yang membalas jasa kalian yang tidak tersebut nama-nama semua.

Contohnya, ketika sedang sangat kecewa dan putus asa diuji,  terasa seperti dikejutkan dengan nasihat yang sangat ikhlas dari kakak yang agak strict. Seperti terbangun dari tidur, thanks a lot kak. Bila begitu sedih dan pilu Lely lebih approachable untuk dikongsi together with my girls. Thanks to all and of course semua yang tidak jemu membantu. If uncle Ai,  Asyraf and Aiman selalu jadi mangsa but now I have Syamim to bring me everywhere. Selalu juga menyusahkan Rolfe dan Ruhaizat. In shaa Allah we will try our best.

To UNIRAZAK, lecturers, staff. Arwah's students,thanks a million.Tambahan pula hampir setiap minggu Syakira balik dengan pelbagai cerita dan sokongan dari rakan-rakannya juga.

Hidup diteruskan demi membesarkan kelima lima anak kami. Sayalah Papa dan Mama dan mencuba yang terbaik.

Peluang berjumpa dan mendapat nasihat dari orang yang berfikiran pisitif sangat membantu. Prof. Dr. Muhaya memberi nasihat yang sangat menyentuh jiwa dan in shaa Allah akan dijadikan panduan hidup.

"Bila orang buat kita, uji kita tak apa sebab dia nak bagi pahala tapi bila orang puji kita kena berhati hati takut timbul riak. Selalu ingat Allah ada dan orang-orang yang banyak keladak kita jauhkan".

Berharap dan berusaha untuk kehidupan yang lebih baik walaupun hanya sementara. Harap tidak disalah anggap kerana keadaan sudah berbeza, perlu labih berhati- hati dan tidak terlalu mempercayai. Menjauhkan diri dan bersikap biasa biasa sahaja adalah lebih selamat.

Semoga arwah suami Allahyarham Mohd Hanif dicucuri rahmat. Al fatihah.....

My Deal

Baking prevails blogging. That's what I can say for the past three weeks and until today.

Alhamdulillah it is almost a year of his demise but I am certainly surrounded and supported by my parents, siblings, relatives and friends. May Allah bless us all. Thank you to UNIRAZAK and staff for the support, they are still contacting, sharing stories and saying hello to us. Its the thought that counts and we appreciate so much. Sometimes my daughters commented, " Ma, kadang-kadang tu terasa orang luar yang lebih concern and ambil berat tentang family kita. Sedih jugak kan". Yes, I supposed they are certainly right but my dear girls, do remember Allah is always there for us.

Back to Papa cookies, my children are very excited with the practical training for the past few weeks, from production and operation, packaging, labeling, financing, promotion, marketing as well as delivering. Syukur alhamdulillah for the effort. If only he is still around, Arwah must be proud of them....
There was one time during Hari Raya when Syakira was in Standard Six, preparing Mee Goreng for our guests. Arwah was very excited announcing to everyone that her daughter was the great cook...

Papa cookies still go on and is currently busy fulfilling demand for pre-Ramadhan. Orders for Hari Raya are also in the list and orders are still welcome. Please feel free to contact (017-3222455/ 017- 3333315).

Our thank you to Syamim Jannah for her effort that Papa cookies is able to be featured in the mydeal online sales.

http://www.mydeal.com.my/deals/kuala-lumpur/ending-soon-30-delicious-homemade-papa-cookies-choose-rm7-1-jar-rm20-3-jars-deliv

Papa Cookies

It was  few weeks after Arwah Hanif passed away when I had the opportunity to meet Dr. Siti Mariah. Sure enough I found myself in a deep conversation with her. We shared about life experieces, and even cried together. The conversation that  we had was only about half an hour but it was truly meaningful, honest and worthwhile. She inspired me and I thought there is no harm trying now.

"Kita diduga dengan pelbagai cara tapi apapun mesti ada hikmah. Dari apa yang saya dengar tentang kisah you ni, saya yakin you boleh, you are educated and I can see that you are very concerned about your kids instead of your ownself. My experiences meeting with single mothers vary. Ada yang ok tapi ada yang fokus kepada diri sendiri, sibuk dengan fesyen terkini dengan gaya yang berlebihan. But I hope you can think and react wisely and this is about the right time for you to seek support from your family and friends. Bukan ambil kesempatan tapi dengan apa yang u ada and your strength, do something and im sure they will support you if they are sincere".

Then I thought this is it. As mentioned in my previous post, my part is done and am now waiting for feedbacks. So why not give it a go. And my girls are also excited about it and they suggested the name Papa Cookies (its all about remembering Arwah Papa).  For our first try it is the Corn flakes homemade Cookies.

Our first week of trying and alhamdulillah we receive orders. Thank you so much to my children for your support and being loyal commenters along with Acik(superb in food testing but yet to order:) and Buji, to Syamin Jannah for the handsome marketing plan, Wee, neighbours, Kak Lina and Suzie, Ms. Leilanie, Ms. Alicia and others. We appreciate your support....Thanks again.

Untuk order yang seterusnya

Patience and Understanding

The processes that I am going through are really new to me. From the day and month of arwah Hanif's demise (July 2012) until today I am still in the midst of tackling one issue to another. Almost a year and along the way I received support, preasures, tests, critics, and positive comments. Accused of being ignorant and not efficient enough to settle things was one of those.Masha Allah, a real challenge! (Sepatutnya cairkan semua aset arwah, bayar hutang kemudian bahagi ikut faraid). One of the comments, simply commenting and not realising this is what Suhaizan has been doing for almost a year till today.

 Sincerely, every single step takes time and tested my patience too. I do not purposely delaying but the procedures and protocoles made me. For months my routines are making telephone calls, visiting Government offices and banks, faxing, sending emails, etc. Therefore, please understand and it is not wise to judge me blindly. It is hard to forget because it hurts but I try to remember it as a good lesson in the future. I am just hamba Allah and am not perfect.

Not only that there are five children to deal with. Hanna's first year of school, Syakira and her PLKN issue and many more. I must thank my friend who assisted us and it was then settled.

By the way to some people who are well experienced and proffesionals, they commented favourably (Kira Zan cepat ya submit dokumen dan dapat settle dengan LA letter, Mahkamah Syariah, EPF  tak sampai setahun, enam bulan lebih dah terima surat perintah mahkamah). Huh, what a relief to hear. A sincere and relevant comments from those who are aware of the processes instead of simply commenting as earlier, right?

I must agree and syukur alhamdulillah compared to those who are still struggling to settle the issue for years, disagreement among siblings, fighting for rights and so on....

To be frank, my  part is done for the time being. Right after the hearing in the land office (several copies of LA letters obtained from them), it is a beginning of another process. Showing proudly the LA to the respective parties and yes I have approached until last week, finally. Puspakom and JPJ done, visit to Inland Revenue done, other Government offices done, and meeting the lawyer done. Nothing else but to wait patiently for the feedbacks and  not waiting blindly instead. Every week I am contacting them for the latest updates. Trust me, I make a pool of new acquaintances along the way...

Please do not get me wrong again. Iam not delaying and denying rights but this is absolutely beyond my control. Hope things can get settled as soon as possible.

The experiences taught me a lot. It is wiser to communicate with the people who appreciate and help sincerely.

Nothing is better than getting redha from Him while going on with life with the children, parents, family and friends healthily and happily. At the same time,In shaa Allah arwah Hanif is always with us. This morning right after she woke up hanna shared her dream, again about arwah. "Ada orang ambil papa bawa balik papa lepas tu kita duduk dengan dia dalam bilik, cium papa, Hakim dengan kak Syakira aje tak ada".........

 Redha, ikhlaskan diri, berusaha, mengenali hati budi setiap insan di sekeliling, lebih berhati-hati dan bergantung sepenuhnya kepada Allah.

"Be patient and understanding. Life is too short to be vengeful and malicious".