Hakim must have been missing him so much, asking me photos of them together, if any.  and the very early next morning, I noticed his whtt app story, not mistakenly, he was only one year plus at tht time.

And look at u now Hakim! u have grown up and even taller than mama! u were only 9 years old when arwah passed away. and on the 14th of May recently u celebrated ur 15th Birthday. We had a short getaway at Cherating with the rest.

Mama wish u the very best of luck in ur life and hereafter. May Allah grant his blessings and redha to you .....

His sudden demise was exactly 10 days before Ramadhan in 2012. This year has been the 7th of Ramadhan without him.

There are times when u are feeling lost, a kind of an overwhelming feeling of sadness for no apparent reason...obviuosly, this year is different. Wondering how to get  through it, especially when really in need of someone. It is not easy. While trying hard to settle and to decide wisely all by yourself, uncertain whether ur right or making things worst.

At the same time , its a relief when someone knock on your door and give a helping hand as much as u wanted.But again, the surroundings, the environment makes u feel guilty.... not prefer to be assumed as taking advantage or be an opprtunist.
Anyway, bila saat2 memerlukan memang sungguh tak ternilai. Hanya memohon semua kebaikan di beri ganjaran yang paling hebat olehNya.

Kelmarin ke sekolah Hanna, berpeluang berjumpa dengan bbrp ibu2 seperti saya. Masing2 dengan masalah yang diluar kemampuan utk di tangani. Emakkan. Manakan sama... ustazah memberi pandangan dan nasihat, katanya memng ujian yang diberikan akan lebih mencabar kepada orng macam kami, banyakkan doa katanya..
Rasa lega sedikit bila kita tahu ada yamg benar2  faham sebab alami pengalaman yang sama. Semuanya dah ditentukan...

Kepada yang tiada henti membantu, terimakasih dan may Allah bless u so much.

Semoga ramadhan tahun ini lebih baik , in shaa Allah.